Saturday, June 28, 2014
Today I found out that one of my beloved aunt has cancer. Stage 4 and they only discovered it a month ago. Why weren't there signs or symptoms way before so that she could have got treated as soon as possible?? Why only now at stage 4 did they know about it? This is especially sad for me and my family because we love them so very much. My grand aunty, who was my aunt's mom was also diagnosed with cancer and was a victim of cancer. She was my favourite grand aunt. She is so gentle, so loving, extremely kind and the best. Her daughter, my aunt, is the exact replica of her mother. Kind, gentle, loving, cheerful, and everything good. Why is she being punished with cancer?? Her children are all still very very young. I can't imagine the pain they are all going through now. Thinking about it really breaks my heart. I feel so helpless. All I can do is to pray for a miracle, a big miracle. Please help them. Protect them. May god bless them.
Saturday, June 7, 2014
Don't you just love random hellos? For example, a friend whom you have not spoken to in while suddenly sends you a text. And the next thing I know, I was smiling from ear to ear. It was extra weird because I was just thinking about this person the whole day and thinking "why haven't you texted me yet? It's been a month since we last talked!" And I thought, hmmm...maybe I should make the first move.. But I'm afraid that maybe that person is busy or I might disturb them, so I forget about it. Then at 8:30pm, omg....did this person read my mind?? Can this person actually hear my thoughts??? It made me feel like my good old friends out there are thinking about me. I am blessed that they still have me in their thoughts. I hope I get more pleasant hellos like this in future. They make me very happy =) <3<3<3
Tuesday, May 20, 2014
It struck me today. What is my purpose of living? What am suppose to accomplish in this life? I wasn't great at swimming, wasn't and still isn't fantastic at school or Uni, recently found out that I suck at dancing. Can't even get casted for 1 production piece. Only 1 choreographer decided to cast anyone who's willing to join his piece. So what else can I do in this life?? I'm graduating soon and I still don't know what I want to do. Since I suck at pretty much everything I do, I'm losing confidence in everything I do now. Reason why I wrote this in my extremely old blog is because I needed to pour my feelings without people knowing. Nobody knows I have a blog anyways. Even if they do they won't know the name to it. I guess this shall be the place where I can safely reveal my thoughts without being judged? Hope so..